So this will be my 2nd entry - 2 days in a row...way to go girl...this is more consistent than any other diary or journal I've ever had...so way to go ME!!
Today is a good day...I went to the gym last night and worked my butt off to get rid of my preggo-gut (which I hate, but am doing my damndest to get rid of!!) - I just hate getting asked "How far along are you?" - or "When are you due?" - etc. So me and the gym are gonna keep having some regular get-togethers in order to work on that!! Plus, I feel so energized today, and good!! I'm glad that I went last night...Plus, it's nice to see Jeff (my boyfriend) at the gym, and see how happy he is to see me there, and how proud he is too :D I really love Jeff, and I'm glad things are moving forward and progressing with us!! He's really the most amazing person in my life...and I wouldn't change him being with me for anything or anyone!! Sometimes I have had my doubts...but in the end, Jeff is the guy I am going to marry - and he couldn't make me happier. There are things I wish he did differently - but you know what - any guy that I would be with would have his faults. Jeff isn't overly romantic, nor does he plan crazy special surprises for me...but you know what, he loves me, and he adores me...and I feel his love...so even though some days it's frustrating, majority of the days...It's enough...and I think that's what matters to me. I get to be myself (because I still enjoy being independant) - and I get to be with the one I love.
Am I EVER in a good mood today...very little is going to be able to bring me down today I think. I've recently been going to see a therapist as well as been taking some medication to help with my moods...All this is a bit temporary...until Jeff and I are in a position to move out...because with all I've been through in my life (with my parents a few years ago, and now more currently with Jeff's family issues) - it's been stressful, and the stress has been weighing heavily on our relationship...so a while ago I made a decision to see someone in order to help change my life and make it better. Thus far it seems to be working. Somedays are bad...but today is a good one :D - and that's one of the first in a while!! I'm proud of myself :D
Being in my late twenties, I sometimes feel I should have been further along in my life by now...however, being where I am right now, today...makes me happy - and isn't being happy the key to living a long life?? So what if I'm not exactly where I wanted to be?? Life has paths carved out for us...and this is just the path that life have carved out for me...it will all work out eventually - and being happy - makes it all worth the wait...
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