Happy Fuckin' Friday

It's FRIDAY BITCHES!! Thank the Lord above...I need this - I need this weekend...to relax, get back on track and not feel as drained anymore.

Had a LOVELY Friday afternoon lunch with one of my bestest buddies...grabbed a few new CD's for my collection at the local Futility Shop (Future Shop) - One of which is Kings of Leon - I need to brush up on my K.O.L. knowledge for our concert on April 21st!! I can't wait for that date!! Which of course is a few days after my 29th birthday...Believe it or not - I am MORE excited for my 29th birthday than I have been for any other in a long time. Probably because I finally feel so free and clear from all the drama and hassles that have plagued my life over the last few years...I'm broken up from the loser that I spent WAY too long with, I'm living on my own, getting money in the bank, and generally just moving forward in a very happy way!! Been going to the gym, been working REALLY hard on my eating habits (it's not as easy as everyone seems to make it out to be :( ) - but I am working on it all - and slowly but surely I AM going to get there!!

To be quite honest - I am happier really than I've ever been!! Maybe I just don't NEED a man in my life to make me happy. Who knows - maybe I am just not ready to let someone back in - maybe that's all...All I know is - it's almost illegal to be this happy all the time :) I love it!!

Today has rocked sofar - as most Friday's do - it's almost 5pm!! Can't wait!! Come on 5:00!!!

Too many bad decisions??

Have you ever sat back and looked at your life and thought...maybe I have just made too many bad decisions in my life...

I am a good person - I am funny, I am fabulous, I love myself, and I am happy with where I am right now - and where I am going...I am satisfied, I am content, and I know I am doing the right thing.

But have you ever sat back and re-thought portions of your life and thought about how things could be different, if you did things differently?? Although very happy with my life right now - I strongly believe that if different choices had been made, I would be at a very different point in my life... maybe not as happy as I feel generally right now - but certain things would be different.

I guess I'm unhappy though - with alot of the bad decisions I have made over the years...picking the wrong guy, spending money stupidly, not taking enough care of myself, and not putting my health first and foremost. I am putting all those things in order and in perspective now, but it's taken me a long time to get here, and to this realization. So some days I can't help but wonder, if I had made the right decision for me at the time, instead of just doing what I thought was right, or would be socially accepted, etc, etc, or what would give me a temporary high and a temporary sense of happiness and acceptance, then maybe I wouldn't be here, maybe I would be better off?? But then again, maybe I would be worse off - who the heck knows!!

All this questioning probably isn't a good thing - and probably isn't necessarily the right thing to do - so I know I should stop questioning myself. But I think everyone - at some point or another - questions some of the decisions they have made in life...and wonders what they could have done differently to make their lives better in some way.

I am thankful though - for what I have everyday now - now I am finally starting off from where I should have been a long time ago...and the endless opportunities for new, happy memories, are overwhelming, and amazing :)

I FEEL YOU..........

Depeche Mode...Ahh, Depeche Mode...how they make me happy and content :) And they are coming to the Molson Ampitheatre this summer. Along with Def Leppard, Poison & Cheap Trick (All on one bill) - and yes, I am going to that concert too!! Mock as you will - however, these bands all rock, and I can't WAIT to rock out to them this summer!!

Work has been KILLER lately!! So sorry to all you followers of this Blog (Am I still only at one?? Haha!!) It's good to be this busy though - it's good to still have a job, and that's the whole point!!

I feel so naked lately without my camera around me :( I have been having to rely on the photographic skills of others lately, and that leaves me feeling empty. I am planning on picking myself up a new camera ASAP - no more of this no camera mumbo jumbo business!! I can't take it any longer!! Ok - I just opened a new tab and did my browsing for a new camera, done and DONE!! I am happy with my choice!! Going to pick it up tonight!! Woot Woot!! I won't feel 'naked' anymore!!

I have made the first step towards changing the color of my hair. You will have to see new pics of it after my outings this weekend :) Tee Hee!! It's very exciting!! It isn't exactly the color I was going for, however, it looks fantastic and I am SUPER happy with it!! It's more of a caramel base color with some blonde highlights. I'm REALLY happy with the outcome, considering what they had to do and where they had to work from. I mean, we are talking BLACK color in my ends!! It's nuts!!

So, being in this new found skin that I have found myself in for the last few months...I have to say that I have never felt more comfortable, I have never felt happier, and I have never felt so free!! I really, really enjoy being the person that I have become, and am excited at all the possibilities that being single right now are bringing to me. I am definitely not looking to rush myself into settling down...however, it doesn't hurt to have your eyes open and see what's out there. I am enjoying myself, and that is the point, and the key to all of my happiness. I have another Vegas trip on the horizon with my BEST girls, and can't WAIT to get back there to release the 'NO MORE JEFF EVER' Steam...Not that I haven't already done that!! But I get to do it for REAL now, because if it ain't done in Vegas, it ain't real...LMAO - I totally made that up!!

Some thoughts and opinions on all the drama in the news of late:

1) Chirs Brown and Rihanna - Honstly - BREAK UP!!! The Dude busted your face because he has anger management problems - PERIOD...and regardless of whether you love him, you started it, someone sent him a text and it sent you into a mad jealous rage, or WHATEVER the case may be!! The man has NO RIGHT to bust your face up like that, put you in the hospital, and then you go running back like a scared little puppy because you feel you can't live without him - WTF!!?? Not COOL!!
2) OCTOMOM - First of all - the name makes me laugh...she sounds like a woman with 8 tentacles that are going to come and get you if you aren't careful...however, any single Mom with 14 kids, better have more than just two arms to take care of THAT SHIZ!! Honestly - the Dr. who did the IVF for her, should be put in a line and shot...ARE YOU THAT DENSE!!?? At what point is a woman just desperate to be preggo, or desperate to have kids...For REALZ!!?? Honestly - That woman should have NEVER been assisted in this last pregnancy - and judging by different clips I have seen online...she is about 6 months away from pulling a Britney and going nutso!! Good Luck to her...but seriously - she needs help...

Well, I've written this entry off and on all day today - time for me to finally post and head out the door. I am off to meet a great old friend of mine for dinner!! Sofie - aka - Plugs!!

TTFN Ya'll, TTF-mutha-fuckin'-N!!