Too many bad decisions??

Have you ever sat back and looked at your life and thought...maybe I have just made too many bad decisions in my life...

I am a good person - I am funny, I am fabulous, I love myself, and I am happy with where I am right now - and where I am going...I am satisfied, I am content, and I know I am doing the right thing.

But have you ever sat back and re-thought portions of your life and thought about how things could be different, if you did things differently?? Although very happy with my life right now - I strongly believe that if different choices had been made, I would be at a very different point in my life... maybe not as happy as I feel generally right now - but certain things would be different.

I guess I'm unhappy though - with alot of the bad decisions I have made over the years...picking the wrong guy, spending money stupidly, not taking enough care of myself, and not putting my health first and foremost. I am putting all those things in order and in perspective now, but it's taken me a long time to get here, and to this realization. So some days I can't help but wonder, if I had made the right decision for me at the time, instead of just doing what I thought was right, or would be socially accepted, etc, etc, or what would give me a temporary high and a temporary sense of happiness and acceptance, then maybe I wouldn't be here, maybe I would be better off?? But then again, maybe I would be worse off - who the heck knows!!

All this questioning probably isn't a good thing - and probably isn't necessarily the right thing to do - so I know I should stop questioning myself. But I think everyone - at some point or another - questions some of the decisions they have made in life...and wonders what they could have done differently to make their lives better in some way.

I am thankful though - for what I have everyday now - now I am finally starting off from where I should have been a long time ago...and the endless opportunities for new, happy memories, are overwhelming, and amazing :)