Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Feelings...nothing more than...Feelings...

Well, well, well...I'm back in the saddle again, ain't that for sure - almost 5 posts in about a month - I'm back up to where I wanted to be originally, but never actually got - LOL!!

Sunday night was Oscar night *SWOON* - how I LOVED the Oscars this year!! My friend had me over to her place where everyone dressed up as a character from any of the nominated films. I was Angelina Jolie from Changeling...and no, I didn't get any pictures, however, my lovely Joanna did, and I am waiting ever so patiently for them so I can pass them along to my friends who all want to know what I looked like that evening. It was the best Oscar party ever, everyone pitched in $10 to make their Oscar picks, and the winner took the pot. So aside from all the characters, the pot, the food, there were the actual Oscars, which in my opinion, ROCKED this year!! They were super fun and were so emotional I found. Where you had 5 past oscar winners in the Best Actor/Actress and Best Supporting Actor/Actress categories handing out the awards to the this years winner. And speaking personally to each nominee, talk about emotion!! It was fantastic though - I throughly enjoyed it :D - Kudos to Slumdog Millionaire, what a great movie, and with 8 awards, it's sort of undeniable!!

To follow up on my rant from last week - we did get paid...however it was only payroll - NOT our bonuses. These have now been promised to us on our March 6th pay - so Paws Crossed that it comes in then...I have to do something with this maine in a way of color, and I have a feeling it will cost me an arm and a leg, hence why I need the damn bonus!! I am actually just looking forward to getting it and paying off my ex so we literally have no reason for communication anymore. I can't WAIT for that day. Although it has been well over a month since we have spoken - so I am happy about that too!!

I am just looking forward on my Calendar to next month (March) - and there isn't too much going on at this point - few big things to look forward to, St. Patty's Day, Dirty Dancing, and a movie night with my cousin/best friend and her BFF Dawn. Some fun stories to come I'm sure!!

I'm mostly just looking forward to the fact that the warmer weather is coming and we can soon look into booking our yearly Vegas trip. We have held off thus far, but I would like to have it booked by my birthday (April 18th) - so we know when we will actually be going. But I will put some more pressure on the girls next month - when we are getting closer to finally deciding when we are going to go. Oh, how I can't wait to be back in Las Vegas with my favorite girls!! But thinking a little bit closer to home, it will be great when I can leave work, and hit up some of my favorite patios with some of my favorite people for some drinks, some fun and some real great conversation!! Oh, how I love those long summer nights!! And I can't wait to have 'em back!!

Also coming up, is my 29th birthday. I am actually pretty excited for my birthday this year...because it's the first year I don't have to worry about being disappointed by a loser boyfriend!! :) However, it will mean a big challenge when the birthday celebrations are all over!! As I have ALOT of goals I want to acheive before I'm 30 - so I've got a year and a bit from now to make 'em happen!! I am GOING to make them happen!!

I am ALSO, finally going back to the gym. I make sure to go earlier in the evening, as to avoid the ex, but I am really enjoying it right now, and because I am still starting, I need some more time for it to become habit forming. But, I am also teaming it with eating better...smaller portions, more often, better foods, WAY less carbs (not NO Carbs, because that is dumb, but less carbs, and better carbs)...and generally just paying much better attention to what I put into my body. The next thing will be sleep - and trying hard to get my sleep patterns under control (Ie, going to be earlier, getting up earlier)...Which is why this Biatch can not WAIT for Daylight Savings time!! LOL!! But being back at the gym is sort of the final straw in me feeling that I am taking my life back and taking back what I was missing out on while I was with Jeff. While I was with him I always tried to go to the gym, but most of the time couldn't because his Mom or someone else needed me. And there were even nights where I had gotten all dressed and ready to go to the gym, and then JEFF, would leave to go to the gym and ask me to stay home to 'take care of his Mom' - honestly - the woman is 45 - she can DAMN WELL take care of herself!! So in the end, the last part of me breaking free, and feeling I am who I want to be, is going back to the gym, which is what I have done now. I am SO PROUD of myself in my post-break up world!! I am being all the things I really want to be, and it's all worthwhile!! Over, and over I realize, it was the best decision I EVER made!!

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